Tuesday, 20 November 2012

Nem megyek én már haza… de jó nekem.

I like waiting for the bus in the morning. It’s such a peaceful moment – even though my eyes are usually still glued together and my brain works in slow motion.

Usually there are a couple of elderly women, some smart-looking men in long coats, some younger men wearing jeans and jackets and one girl or two.


This post made me think of all the things I’ve lost this year. (Yes, there’s still one month left of 2012, but I’ve already started the countdown. ). I have lost a lot of things – some hopes and dreams, a long-term relationship, a job, a country, the possibility (and time) to study Hungarian. I’ve lost some energy and at times I’ve felt like my sanity had gone, too. But at the same time I’ve received a lot – that long-term relationship turned into a great friendship, I have new friends and staying in close touch with old ones, I’m conquering a new city, a new country, a new language. I found a passion of sorts in sociology of law. I no longer study Hungarian, but now I’ve got Hungary right around the corner. At the end of the day I’m happy to be where I am right now.

A lot of things have happened in 2012, maybe that’s why I’m feeling so old and wise. Actually, I’m suffering from the feeling-like-an-old-lady-syndrome. Now it’s time to start living like women my age do! Winking smile

And then.


Natalie said...

Wait, you're not studying Hungarian anymore??? When did this happen? I'm quite surprised, as you seemed to love the language so much.

(But I can totally understand not having enough time to study it. I desperately want to learn Serbian and revisit my Spanish, among other things, but I simply don't have the time.)

Zsuzsi said...

Natalie, it's exactly because of the lack of time. I'm thinking about taking some classes this spring and then continue with it at uni in the autumn. The problem is that now Slovak is kind of messing the whole thing up. So many languages and so little time.

keishua said...

being happy where you at the end of the day is so important.
i really admire your love of languages. one day, i will master another one. one day.

Natalie said...

Zsuzsi, I can definitely relate. I suppose it is a good thing, though, that Slovak is a Slavic language – since you know Polish and Russian to a high degree, I'm assuming this will help you in mastering it. :)

Really, my ideal job would consist of someone paying me (preferably rather large amounts of money!) to just learn random languages. Unfortunately, I'm finding out that such a scenario is quite impossible! Especially now that I've decided to switch fields, any new languages will have to be put on hold. I guess I shouldn't complain; at least I had the opportunity to learn Russian to a high level!