
Vodka and orange on a Thursday...

... wearing a scarf when it's over thirty degrees outside....
... but really, it's just a sore throat!
Площадка для игр Жужи/Plac zabaw Żuzi/ Zsuzsin leikkikenttä/ Zsuzsis lekplats/ El patio de Zsuzsi/ Ihrisko Zsuzsi
Sometimes I just don't understand myself, the last few days I have been covered by some big black cloud that has made me both intolerable and horible.
Here are the steps of the moodiness process
a) some external, irritating aspect attacks: it can be the heat, hunger, pain, female problems, or somebody's behaviour. Or all. at once.
b) instead of locking myself into a room and stay there until bad temper has passed (like I should do), I opt for the more dangerous option; wanting my boyfriend to cheer me up. Obviously I cannot tell him about it, because I don't want to come across as whiney and demanding. Boyfriend probably feels that something is wrong because he escapes to his computer after checking that I'm OK (come on, even if my mouth says that I am OK, it should be evident that this is not the case).
c) level of moodiness hits a new all time high because now everything comes crashing down.
d) welcome stubborness: I, the egocentric horrible whiney girlfriend, am feeling bad and am not going to suggest anything because he has hurt my feelings and ladiladilaa. So I prefer to sulk and think about bad things, making the big black cloud grow even further.
Seeing my behaviour written down in a list like this, I see the solution very clearly. Although one of the best and most comforting things in the world is to be hugged by my boyfriend (you should try), I probably should hide in some dark room until the moodiness has passed. Make myself a moodiness-emergency-package (good book, chocolate, fruit and something nice to drink) and try to cheer myself up. As someone wise once said: don't expect from others what you can't do for yourself. Or something like that.
My getting fit project is going, if not completely according to plan, then at least forward. The last four days I have done quite a bit of exercise; pilates and walking/running. The pilates exercises are showing their true face in the form of sore stomach muscles. I have given the cardio quite a smooth start, better to take it slow and steady than to face a total collapse. Now I should slowly start increasing the distance, so that the running will have some effect. The other day we found a good route, so maybe I will try it out tomorrow (today is devoted to grocery shopping and cleaning). Once I can run 60 minutes without stopping, I will try to improve the intensity.
The food part is more of a mess: three days of pasta is not ideal, although I dare to say that it's not as unhealthy as many think. On a more positive note, my intake of white bread has dropped dramatically (very much helped by the fact that I'm a great fan of rye bread). Furthermore, I'm starting to get into the tea-rut again. Drinking hot tea during a heat wave that lasts for 3-4 months is not the most appetizing of ideas, but who said it has to be hot? Instead of buying ready made iced teas with tons of added sugar, putting a tea bag in a glass of cold water and with ice is just as good. Green tea is surprisingly tasty, and a lot less bitter than the hot version.
Anyways, there are several salads I want to try (shrimps, salmon, goat cheese), so maybe this week could be the good moment.
Strange night and morning. First I dreamt about my brothers disappearing to a parallel universe and the only way to get them back was to use stones to make a fire. Got up at 6.15. Something that I would like to do every morning but I'm too much in love with my bed. Had breakfast and got out of the house… Halfway down the stairs I realised that something fairly important was missing; my glasses. What's that a sign of? Old age?
Once again it was proved that morning walks are good for your brain activity. While racing up and down the hills of Paterna while listening to Zveri, it dawned on me. I am an immigrant. An immigrant of the lucky kind. The kind that is embraced with open arms because of the right passport, the right kind of education and the right appearance.
My passport used to be blue. Now it's red, but nonetheless it grants me access to most countries of the world. If I would feel like it, I could move to Romania and nobody would harrass me. I've gone to a good British university, one of the best in fact. Not because my parents are wealthy enough to spend thousands on their adventerous daughter. Although my parents helped, I think the Finnish state has been the most contributing part, together with my own work. My light hair and light skin makes me blend in in this European paradise and very few xenophobic idiots are likely to start calling me names on the street. Even in Russia I managed to avoid problems to such an extent that it was almost unnaturally hilarious. One drunken guard with vodka in his head does not matter much as long as the militsia boys leave you alone. If I get into trouble, I won't need to start any illegal activitites. If Spain won't look after me, I can always rush back to Finland and the problem is solved.
So, I'm an immigrant because it's fun and because I'm in love. I'm not starving, being threatened or being bombed at. The risk of being tortured is not very big either. Wow, I am lucky. Lucky, lucky, lucky. And completely pissed off with people who sit on their big fat asses complaining about how immigrants (the bad kind, the illegal ones) are invading their country and taking their jobs. Is it more ok then that another European comes and takes their jobs? I knew a guy once, in Manchester. A good catholic with a master's degree in sociology who was telling everyone that his children would go to a private school so that they wouldn't need to associate with Muslims. They should all just returnto where they came from. This highly educated man from northern Poland had been living in England for a couple of years, many of the Muslims he was critising had come to the UK decades earlier.
Blah. A veces la gente piensa con sus dedos.
Lucky lucky lucky… Now I have Kylie Minogue singing in my head. Lalalalala.
Food/Excercise diary from yesterday (10/06-09)
Meal 1 (9.45): dried rye bread with cheese and cucumber. Yogurt. Cappuccino.
Meal 2 (13.30): wild rice and vegetable stir-fry (carrots, cauliflower, broccoli, onion, garlic, pepper). Blueberries.
Meal 3 (18:00): plum and cup of coffee.
Meal 4 (21:00): Spanish omelette made by the best Omelette cook around + raspberries.
Other: 2 breadsticks. 2 cups of green tea.
Pilates 40 minutes: basic training + legs. Especially my legs felt very stiff.
… jump into the sea and feel all the chilly waves washing over me. And stay there for a long time. Did anyone say it is hot today?
One more blog entry without photos, but who cares really?
For a while now I have been feeling like a balloon ready to explode at any minute, and it has affected my mood and self-esteem in a most disturbing fashion. I'm not going to go into details, because the important thing is not to think about the problems but how to solve them.
The below "fit list" is the summary of various points that I think might help me reach some goals…
1) Exercise: easy. 12,000 steps a day is what it takes for an average person to maintain his/her weight. One does not need to be Sherlock Holmes to realise that the average office worker does not reach that number by sitting on his/her bum all day long. So 12,000 steps a day it is. Running four times a week (wednesday, friday, saturday and sunday). Pilates on Tuesdays, Thursdays, Saturdays and Sundays. During the week between 7.30 pm and 8.30 pm, which means that at those times I will be unavailable for cooking, cleaning and Veronica Mars. That hour is going to be holy from now on, and nobody is allowed to suggest any temptations.
2) I have noticed that it is quite fun to do exercise but as soon as my rhythm gets interrupted by anything at all (parents visiting to having a bad day), it is difficult to get back on track. I need to find a way to keep going even when I don't feel like it. But where on earth do you find the motivation for this?
3) 3 meals a day: breakfast at 9.45 a.m, lunch at 13.30 and dinner at… Maybe a snack at 18.00 depending on dinner. Scheduling my meals, especially dinner, is a complicated task due to culture differences. I would prefer to have dinner at 19.00 the latest, but due to Spanish standards it is completely impossible, so I can choose to have dinner alone or have it way too late. *
4) Colours, calcium and proteins. Colourful food usually means vegetables and fruit, apparently different colours all have different health advantages. Calcium is not only good for the bones but it also helps weight loss, and proteins are important for the muscles. I'm especially having problems with the proteins and should try eating more fish, eggs, lean meat and dairy products.
5) Drinking matters: tea effectively flushes your system, soft drinks make you bloated, alcohol kills braincells, coffee wakes you up, milk is good for the bones and water keeps you alive.
6) Rest… rest does not necessarily refer to sleep, it can also refer to a long walk that clears your head, a relaxing foot bath or literary escapism in its best form.
7) Pampering: massages, baths, intellectual stimuli and aesthetical inspiration.
Translation: tool. skills. time. art. To do it well you don't just blow the dust off your dictionary and start writing. No, you play with words, look for the right piece to complete the puzzle and spend plenty of time on google. You talk to yourself while trying to figure out which sentence sounds better. At time it must rhyme and at others highly technical vocabulary almost drives you mad.
Patience. Curiosity. Willingness to learn.
And an obvious sign of a tired translator is when translation funnily becomes traduction just like in France.
One year and a few days ago I packed all my belongings, jumped on the bus at 5 a.m. and reached Liverpool airport an hour and a half later. The yellow submarine was there, and so were some of the most typical tings that I associate with England; Starbucks (how many hours did I not spend in there), Boots (I’m scared to think how much time I spent on smelling things) and Superdrug.
A certain Irish airline took me to the Spanish east coast and here I am, one year later.
Although it has been a tough year in many ways, I have also been very, very lucky. In a time of increasing unemployment, I managed to find a job, despite the lack of any real Spanish skills. Without going to classes, those skills have actually improved quite a lot during the past year, although I still mess up once in a while. I have also figured out what I want to do with my life, which isn’t too bad either (only if it means that I’ll have to learn French, no offence to anyone, but the relationship that I have with the French language is slightly ambiguous).
And well, the main reason why I can say that moving to Spain was worth all the trouble is that every morning I get to wake up next to the only person in the whole world that I want to wake up with (touch wood!).
We celebrated this anniversary in the most typical fashion: there’s one place where we like to go to celebrate things. It’s nothing fancy or cool or romantic. It’s a typical Spanish bar with typical Spanish tapas where the waiter kisses you on the cheek and where the flans are to die for. Maybe we like it so much because it’s like us: uncomplicated and quite content with the little things in life. After all, who wants gourmet when you can have potatoes covered in Roquefort and goat cheese with blueberry jam? Not to mention those flans… And they even have coke! (as in coca cola… the other day we found a bar that only had beer and schweppes).
Summa summarum: the first year has been good, the second one will be even better!